Hi, Seungyoun!
I know you won't read this, so let me talk freely hehe
Back then tahun 2019 waktu gue nonton PDX101 episode awal-awal, jujur gue ga pernah lirik lo sama sekali. Gue bahkan ga notice kalo lo ada. Gue baru akhirnya notice lo di performance rap lo yg so-called all-rounder itu.
My first impression to you? “Oh wow this guy is cool, kayaknya gue harus pick dia”
That's it.
Ga ada di pikiran gue kalo that day, that particular moment, jadi awal semua hal baik yang terjadi di hidup gue because of you.
Days went by sampai akhirnya lo berhasil debut di X1. Gue seneng setengah mati sampe teriak-teriak loncat-loncat kayak orang gila di KLCC (berhubung pas final PDX101 gue lagi liburan di KL haha). Then more days went by sampai akhirnya X1 diputusin bubar after only 6 fckin months.
Gue yang udah semakin tau tentang sejarah debut lo saat itu beneran khawatir sama lo. Gue takut aja lo menyerah di sini karena lagi-lagi the group you belongs to bubar karena keadaan. But when I saw the message you wrote not long after the announcement, I realized you're stronger that I thought. Di situ juga momen gue memantapkan hati: I'm gonna stay with you and follow your journey.
Beberapa bulan kemudian, you finally released your 1st solo album. Gue bangga banget saat itu, tau ga Yon? Semua orang gue racunin lagu lo. Gue bangga-banggain lo di depan semua temen-temen gue karena lo emang sekeren itu! Dan seluruh isi dunia harus tau lo keren!
Saking bangga dan cintanya gue saat itu sama lo, gue juga memutuskan buat all out buat lo. Semua potensi gue bakal gue keluarin demi lo. That's how I joined Woodzsubs, my 1st community. Gue sangat menikmati hari-hari gue sama Woodzsubs. Setiap hari translate konten-konten lo sambil ngobrol-ngobrol juga sama teman satu team, berpusing ria bareng sama translator karena kita ga ngerti lo ngomong apa, hyping bareng sekaligus bilang “omg new work coming” tiap lo rilis konten with no subs. It was very memorable to me and I miss it to be honest. It was a pity that we need to shut down.
Days, weeks, months, years went through. Selalu ada lo di hari-hari gue. Sekali pun gue sempet lebih fokus ke artis lain, lo selalu punya tempat di otak dan hati gue. You never left.
And we came to this year, 2023. The 4th year since I decided to be your fan. I never thought that this year will be my best year so far in my life thanks to you.
Started from your visit to Jakarta back in June. Lo tau ga Yon? Gue ga pernah seharian nyengir terus sampe pipi gue sakit, segitunya gue seneng di hari itu. It was the best day in my life, momen-momennya terekam jelas di otak gue. Melihat banyaknya orang yang dateng hari itu bikin gue makin bangga sama lo, Yon. Like, look what you've become! You've grown bigger than ever! Bangga banget! Di hari itu juga gue ketemu banyak teman baru yang sama sayangnya sama lo. Ah, ga bisa berkata-kata lagi gue buat menggambarkan how happy I am that day.
Terus ya, Yon, mulai dari hari itu my life just gets better & better everyday. Gue punya makin banyak temen Moodz, gue gabung INA MOODZ, ikut event-event yang berhubungan sama lo bahkan jadi panitianya. Yon, there's just so many fun and great things happened in my life this year thanks to you!!! Gue bener-bener ga bisa list satu persatu karena terlalu banyak huhu.
Sampai akhirnya sampai OO-LI AND IN BKK kemarin, konser terakhir lo di 2023 ini. Jujur, I was not going to go, karena gue pikir kayaknya bakal ada banyak kerjaan di akhir tahun. Tapi gatau kenapa ada satu feeling yang terus-terusan nyuruh gue buat pergi, minta gue buat nekat aja ketemu lo. And so I did. And my feeling was right as this is the last time I can meet you in person at least until 2025, since you will go for another journey for your country soon.
Yon, lo tau ga kemaren kita kira-kira ada 40 orang loh berangkat dari Indonesia demi lo? Gila ga sih? Dan tau juga ga Yon kalo orang-orang ini baik dan cantik semua? Meleleh banget gue sama mereka, sampe bener-bener gamau pisah. Saat ini selain sedih pisah sama lo, gue juga sedih pisah sama mereka. Kayak bener-bener kehilangan gitu. Hidup gue hampa, kosong.
This BKK trip, was my first overseas country trip that I will cherish forever in my heart. And again, all thanks to you, Seungyoun.
So Seungyoun, hear me out.
Thank you for existing in this world. Thank you for stealing my heart away. Thank you for staying strong. Thank you for not giving up. Thank you for always thinking of us. Thank you for always being close to us, even though we are not together. Thank you for everything you did for us. Thank you for all the nice things you said to us. Thank you for being our role model. Thank you for being our friend, older brother, younger brother. Thank you for your love.
Thank you for being you, Cho Seungyoun.
Good luck on your upcoming journey and please remember that I won't go anywhere. You already had that special place in my heart.
Also, please remember that sometimes it's okay to be weak and seek comfort from others. I hope you're not suffering by yourself by enduring things that you feel you need to endure. Although I know and I believe you have a strong heart, but still please find your loved ones when you need them.
Stay healthy, I will also do the same thing.
I love you❤️